So. where do i start? I was thinking about a book that i read pretty often, it's called perks of being a wallflower. In that book there is a boy named "Charly" he was a very mixed up little boy who was about to start his first year of high school. As most of you probably know, High school is the start of the process of growing up/daycare. One of charlies therapists told him to keep some kind of journal to write down his feelings and experiences to help deal with the stress of losing a friend. I haven't lost a friend, but sometimes i feel like i'm losing myself, so i thought.. why not?? Today was a very stressful day. Going back a few months i ended an engagement with a person i've been with for 5 years. I never realized how bad of a relationship it was until she told me for the SECOND time that if i did not show her more attention, she was afraid she MIGHT find it in someone else. It took me about a week and a half to really decide that i did not want to marry her. It should have been done instantly the first time. I've been away from her for about 5 months. A few weeks ago, i started talking to a girl that i've been acquainted with since the 9th grade, and she is absolutely one of the most fantastic people i've ever met. Like any other person, she has issues. As far as i can tell, its social anxiety, along with a little attachment disorder. I think we have a little more in common than she thinks. We'll see how this goes :)
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